Fast forward about 3 years and I know I'm an emotional eater. All it takes is a little dis-regulation and I'm snacking. I don't happen to be someone who purges and even when I go "out of the box," I am saved by the fact that we don't have a lot of my trigger food in the house. (If you ever see me eating a sandwich, however, please put your arm around my shoulders and say, "What's going on, sweetie?" Nonetheless, I also have a very efficient metabolism which will come in really handy if I'm ever in a survival situation. For now, though, it just means I don't lose weight if I don't stick to my plan.
So . . after The Valentine's Vomiting, it took me several days to get back on track. I gained 3.5 pounds in the several days it took me to re-regulate. And I realized it wasn't only the Love Day incident that set me on a path of self-destruction. It happened to coincide with a nasty sinus infection that temporarily rendered me unable to exercise. I too sick to exercise and do the essential care of my family. I have learned through all this that when I am not getting to the gym, my motivation to stay "in the box" just goes right down the tube.
A couple of conversations with my support partners and I am "in the box again." This time with a little extra motivation and a few coping mechanisms:
- I am going to go to the gym on my regular days even if I can't work at my usual level and just walk gently on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Turns out just getting there is as important as what I actually do!
- I am going to start looking for those outfits I've "pinned" so that when I go down one more size, I can buy them at a good price
- I have set short term goals for April 1 and May 1
- I'm increasing my 3 cardio days to hour-long sessions
- I'm going to talk to a trainer about my circuit routine
- I am going to stick with my current "box" until April 1, then re-evaluate
- Maintain my "text accountability" program
- When I find myself in front of the pantry with an intention of "snacking," I am going to set a timer for 10 minutes, go to my room, sit in my comfy chair and look at what is really going on!